I’ve lost myself to many things.
Pleasure. Pain. Desperation. Loneliness. And I’ve let me do it. Without
regrets, without remorse. And I keep up, without knowing a single thing about
me, with fear. I take no satisfaction in this.
I’m
a complete stranger to my future. I don’t know the next minute, I don’t even
know the next word. And I keep up, keep on. It seems automatic.
I
don’t know how I should deal this business. I should be dead by now, by my own
hand, by other’s, by fate’s or bad luck’s.
I
continue to watch mad man die, insane other to give birth; I have seen years
turn older and people giving them away.
I’ve
lost myself to many things that I don’t know how to, actually, keep up with
myself, to bear me, how to endure me, how to deal with my inner demons or
angels – I don’t even know the difference anymore.
I
stand still, the whole world spinning around me, mad, happy, loving, lonely,
angry, indifferent. And I’m losing to it. I’m one revolution behind, a little
slower, a little farther, but I’m still here and the world is still spinning –
it’s not like it’s going to stop because of me.
And
I don’t know how.
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